The last six weeks have been a time of stepping out of my comfort zone; far far out!
As you probably know, I’ve been preparing to self-publish a children’s picture book for many months… I thought I’d overcome the fear of “being visible” by publishing this blog but I discovered that this was definitely not the case.
On the day I received the print-ready files of The Choo Choo Park from my illustrator I was absolutely delighted and SO excited… for about half an hour. Then a wave of pure terror knocked me right off my feet. The thought of opening myself up to other people’s opinions on something that was such a part of me was completely overwhelming.
For several weeks I struggled to get my head around this; swimming and healthy eating went right out the window, making me feel even worse. Fortunately I didn’t even consider putting the book in a drawer and leaving it there; I knew I had to finish what I’d started. I forced myself to take a small step every day – request printing quotes, research crowdfunding platforms etc…
With the support and encouragement of special friends, fellow writers and my amazing family I got through the wobble and posted my Thundafund campaign on Facebook last week, what a relief!
The whole experience reminded me of something one of my writing mentors quoted when teaching us how to create believable characters; “All of us are riddled with self-doubt”.
Now that I’ve spent a few weeks working through the initial hard bits I’m starting to feel the truth of the quote, “Life begins at the end of your comfort zone”. I’m feeling so excited at the thought of holding a printed copy of my book in my hands.
If you’d like to pre-order a copy you’ll find my Thundafund campaign here: www.thundafund.com/project/